In the name of a sweeter ending
please forget not my better memories with you
let this not be so abrupt
the coldness could put me into shock
For you are my first
and I vividly remember
you made me swear
for you to be my last
If you have learned
to loathe the very thought of me
be so kind
to not let me find out
the words from your lips
inflict pain so unbearable
And to you I've gone mad
Everything around me
triggers a red alert
forgive me
I grew up like this
This is nothing you've never seen
you laugh at my utter need for a backbone
you pity how pathetic I've become
but I thank you
for the days
just the days
you made ours
For what its worth
I will pretend
to be kind again
beautiful
the most beautiful girl you've ever seen
And maybe I could find
someone who'll see me again
the way you did
when we first shared that bottle of beer
Who will not push us further
over the edge
when things fall apart
Who will see me
as her lover
and not anything else
Everything
still seems to be a blur
and I am somewhat delusional
but maybe if I keep pretending
to be how I was
when our eyes first met
maybe I could find
the better of you
still longing for me.
only me.
